Thank you SO much for sharing your experience! That is a very long relationship you have had. It's beautiful that you have taken a chance to experience life without cannabis and understood the deeper purpose for your relationship to her.
I have experienced a deeper and more divine connection with cannabis when I take breaks and then use small amounts while I'm out in nature. These have been the best experiences I have had with this medicine.
I hope you will update us on your new relationship with ganja. Thank you again for your insight and wisdom!
-Tammy